so so so tired, luckly i got sleeping pills.

so tired, and sick 2,3 days already don't know why?!
weather too hot i guess. sighs!
plus plus, went see doctor $42. ex! i like 1year plus never see private clinic le.=i

thinking back at times, i feel rather dumb or stubborn.
just that feeling, i can't ease off that momentary pain i get one at a time.
i usually don't get pissed so easily last time, now it has changed.
cause i don't care what people say about me. now i care. cause i have another on my back. cause i can't drag the person down.
it's time to get back, firmly again. i told myself alot of times. it never work.
now, no more holding the horses back. full steam ahead!=D




there's only days left for me.
maybe to be suicidal.